Valentines Day

Hey guys, so I'm just writing a little journal since tomorrow is Valentines Day, and I felt so inclined. <33 Just pouring a few of my feelings out there.

Up until last Valentines Day, it had really always been Singles Awareness Day to me, haha. xD And it really really sucked. All I wanted was to not feel so alone on Valentines Day and see everyone else getting flowers and chocolates and not getting anything from anyone... and of course, I complained about it. I whined and whined about how much I hated the holiday because I never got a thing.

But now, I'm in a relationship, and I'm very, very happy. <3 This will be my second Valentines Day with her and I couldn't be more pleased that it is.~ But, Valentines Day still hardly makes me happy. And there's a couple reasons for this.

One. We still have to hide. Being in a relationship like ours is never easy. It's accepted by some, not accepted by others, and you pretty much have to hide it from a lot of people until you know they'll accept you. Of course, that really isn't the case for ME considering I prance around pretty much screaming about how much I love my girlfriend, but that's besides the point. xD

Constantly we have to hide the fact we're together whether it be times in the public or more especially in front of the parts of our families that don't approve. This makes it so even though we're together, we won't get to see each other this Valentine's Day, among a few other factors that are causing us to be forced apart. This in and of itself doesn't make the holiday very desirable, because it'll be just like old times, going to school and seeing cuddling couples and knowing my own girl is far away and I don't get to hold her or give her anything either.

Two. The couples that constantly complain and complain about the holiday. Now now, I know earlier I said that used to be me, but let's just pay attention to the word USED. It constantly irks me when I see people on Facebook or deviantART or Tumblr or wherehaveyou complaining and whining about how much they despise Valentines Day and etc etc etc. I broke out of that even before I was in a relationship with my girlfriend, because frankly, that's just plain hurtful. There are a lot of people who find great pleasure out of the holiday, and it's one thing to say you celebrate Singles Awareness Day but another to hate on those who are actually happy.

Seriously? Be upset to yourself as much as you want to, but DON'T make other couples feel like shit because they want to be happy and have a good day. You can have every reason in the world for not agreeing with Valentines Day, but complain in private, not where there's a chance of offending someone... Many people's anniversaries are on Valentines Day, many people get married or have children (like my brother, for example) or get proposed to or propose to a loved one or some other occurrence that makes it a special day!

So, if there's a chance of offending someone with your whining, in my opinion just don't do it. ;___; It'd make someone's day a lot more swell. And I'm not saying every person who sees complaining gets totally offended either- but I know that I sorta do when all I see is "GOD I HATE VALENTINE'S DAY." and I'm trying to enjoy myself even though it's hard.

So with all of that said, I'm personally still trying to keep a smile on my face for both my girlfriend and I for tomorrow's holiday. <3 I'm not one to run around bragging about how excited I am but I'm happier keeping to myself and watching everyone else have a good time. I personally will be thinking about her all day though and awaiting the chance I get to give her a little present.~

As of what's going on besides Valentine's Day, I'm still working hard on finishing and revising references, finishing the second part of Nal and Eiez's Wedding Story, working diligently to keep an A or B in every class, and struggling with physical and health challenges that are besides the point. Everything's been mellow recently, but I'm going to be very busy this month very quickly and I'm so happy many of you are being patient with gifts and things I've promised. Thank you so much... <3 I'm trying as hard as I can to finish them but it's been so stressful. I have an agenda for each day and art has kinda been unwillingly shoved onto the backburner! ;A;

But I thank all of you guys for shining your pretty little rays of sunshine down on me all the time and making everything so wonderful! <333 I can't tell you how happy I am seeing friends checking up on me and getting all these favorites and things all the time on my pictures. It's definitely motivation to keep me creating and pushing forward!~

Anyways, that's all I have to say for now. ;v; I'm sorry I never really write much! Again, so busy... But until next time, thanks for bearing with me. !!~